Holding in...

Choking back the tears,

I choose to smile

... for awhile.

Sunlight dancing across the wall,

causing me to concentrate... reflect.

Thumbing through pages

Vast emotions unwilling,

refusing to turn into words.

Leaning into the pillows,

careening into sadness.

I did this... I did

A hum in the air,

a whisper upon the wind.

Unspoken feelings,

held within.

Tears escape me...

Still forcing a smile

cause that's my way

Denial

Tall grass, open field

red sun setting in a magenta sky.

Holding fast to memories

as I cry.

Freely... openly

I alone know the truth

Inside

If only I could fly.

Dana